God's words

I was just writing a prayer letter to God. I was talking to Him about how I need to be more aware of Him throughout the day. I can be at the end of a day and realize the day has just past me by and I didn't really get much from it. God is working in my life every second of everyday, and I have missed what He has done for me that day. I focus more on the worldly things still rather than focusing more on God.
I use to hear people talk about how God has given them a word for the year, something to dwell on, to help them with their relationship with God. I never use to understand how people heard from God, how they new God has given them this word. Well, now I have been able to hear words from God. It is like my pastor said last night at bible study. You will start understanding God's words when you are filled with His Holy Spirit. When I became filled with the Spirit it gave me a new desire to set my life right. That took me a couple of years, and it was difficult for me, but once I was able to put things behind me and start to remove the barrier between me and God I was able to really start to hear from Him.
It started for me back in September. My word then was TRUST. God showed me that word in my BSF (Bible Study Fellowship) class. I needed to trust God more, to give Him control of my life. In May it was OPEN and HONEST. I needed and wanted to be more open and honest in my relationships. I want people to know the real me, and I want to be comfortable with who God has made me to be and to stop trying to be someone I am not. In July it was INTEGRITY. God spoke that word to me through my Pastor. That word came after a hard lesson in how to be open and honest in a loving way. It was a reminder that I need to be very careful what I say to people, and more importantly, how I say it. This month my word is FOCUS. I have really been trying to work on what I allow myself to focus on. I want to focus on God so much more than I do. I want to focus on the love and support that comes from Him. I catch myself allowing my thoughts to put myself in negative situations in order to feel loved and ,basically, pity from people; to feel important and special. I truly don't want that. I want to keep my focus on God so that when people look at me they see God shining through me.
I asked God while I was writing to Him this morning to inspire me to be able to write something in my blog today. He did so instantly. I actually stopped my letter to write this. Sorry God, for cutting my letter short.
Wow! I really need to work on writing a little faster, I have been working on this for over an hour. I need to go get ready, today is beach day!
Have a Blessed Day!