Wednesday, December 29, 2010

2011 Here I Come!

I am really looking forward to a new season in my life. 2011 in going to be a year of focusing on evangalism in my church. That really excites me; I am so looking forward to opportunities to spread my wings, hopefully do some things that I would normally allow my fears to stop me from doing. I feel like I am finally ready to let go; to lay my gifts before the king with confidence, knowing that they will never be perfect but that they will still bring my Heavenly Father great pleasure.

Looking back, 2010 did not go like I had hoped it would but I think I have made some big strides, especially in the past couple of months.

I am thankful for for all that God has done in my life this past year. For...
-the growth I have seen in my family.
-the growth that I have seen in myself.
-keeping us healthy this year.
-a new friend that I made this year.
-a church that continues to inspire and encourage me.
-being able to touch people's hearts with the talents God has given me.
-the freedom of all the burdens that life can weigh you down with.
-my relationship with Him through His Son, my Savior, Jesus Christ.
-allowing me to have a brief moment of face to face with an old friend.

2011, HERE I COME!

God, Thank you for your love and support this year; thank you for your perfect faithfullness. Your love, protection and guidance never fail. Your patience is beyond my comprehension. Bless those that I love and care for deeply, and bless those I don't know. I am here for you, to serve you. I know that you will give me everything I need to accomplish the plans you have for me. Help me to not miss one opportunity you place before me. I want to be a light that shines for you. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Christmas Gift


CHRISTMAS GIFT
By Tammy Lochridge

Perfect star shinning brightly for all the world to see.
Perfect baby given by God for you and me.
Temptations, disappointments and pain, this baby will know.
But, not once will He falter, wither or grow slow.
Perfect faithfulness - steadfast and true.
Perfect gift from God for me and you.

So, what gift could I ever give in return?
I ponder and ponder with anxious concern.
There is nothing that I could ever buy or do;
To say thanks and show my love for you.
I fall to my knees and lift up a prayer;
I know I'm unworthy but, I know you still care.

And this is your answer to me...

Let my light shine through;
Be open honest and true.
A song of praise is what you can bring.
Worship my name; I want you to sing.
With a steadfast heart inside of you;
Live what you believe, that's all I ask of you.

So, this Christmas, I lay my gifts before the King.
They'll never be perfect but, the best I can bring.

Friday, November 5, 2010

None but Jesus



I performed this at my church, Dodge Park Church, this past Sunday. I am very thankful for this talent that God gave me. Whether you write it, sing it or do a dance to it, music is a wonderful way to express your emotions. Thank you, God, for the gift of music. Thank you, God, that I can have quiet times with you. Your patience and you love is beyond compare.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Stand firm so you do not fall.

I recently watched the movie; "Pay it forward, and for those of you who have never seen the movie, it is about a boy who comes up with an idea on how to change the world. The idea came from an assignment given to him by his teacher. His idea was to help three people, and ask them to help three people, and so on. It is a very good movie.

Anyway, I was really struck by what Trevor McKenney, played by Haley Joel Osment, had said when he was being interviewed in the movie. This is what he said...

"I don't know, I think some people are scared or something. Think things can be different? I mean, the world's not exactly...shit. I guess it's kind of hard for people who are so use to things the way they are - even if they're bad - to change cause they kind of give up, and when they do, everybody kind of loses."

Wow! I can so relate to what he said. It is so easy to want to give up; just stay in this familiar shell. It can by a very stressful, frustrating and lonely place, but it is what I know best; it is home.

God has really been talking to me about perseverance. I am studying Isaiah in my BSF class and a verse that really stuck out for me this week was; "If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all." Isaiah 7:9b. There was a sentence in the BSF notes, too; "You can stand firm as you learn to trust the promises of God, thereby gaining confidence and strength for the future.

I have trust issues. I realized, this week, that I am putting my trust in my fears. I don't know that I fully understand what it is that I am so afraid of. I use to think it was failure. I now wonder if it is success that I fear.

I know that my quality, quiet times with God are important. It is important for me and it is important to God. God wants to protect me, guide me, and shower me with His love and blessings. The thing is, I have to allow Him to do it. God is a gentleman; He is not going to force Himself on me.

I recently saw a very powerful play; "The Edge of Eternity". Satan kept coming out on the stage to remind us how he loves to fill our heads with lies; use our weaknesses to try and control us. If we take our focus off of God we will start to believe those lies; Satan will win us over to his side.

Look up at God, trust in Him; lean on Him because He will win the battle for you every time, all you have to do is ask.

So it is my goal to stand firm in my faith. I can't lose by allowing Satan to win; I can't lose because then everyone else loses. The way I see it, it is a more of a struggle to fight your way back to God than it is to work strenghthening the bond you already have with Him. God needs me. He has plans for me.

The video I have added to the end is a really powerful visual of our relationship with God.


Friday, April 16, 2010

POWER DOWN

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13

This past Sunday was the first of a six-week long sermon series at our church. The topic was Powerful Positive Friendships. This is what I took away from the sermon. Power down; this was a phrase that Pastor Jerry talked about. It means to give up control. He talked about how we need to give up these words; I, me, my, mine. This especially stood out to me because it was brought to my attention a short while back that I used the word “I” a lot. Giving up control (complete submission) is hard for me. God has been revealing to me that my need to be in control is very strong. When things don’t go the way I pictured it I become very emotional. I lose sight of the original goal.

Perfect example: This past Sunday.
I was given the privilege to plan the lessons for kid’s church for this series on relationships. I have enjoyed every moment of the planning and was very excited about teaching the children. I was very optimistic that with all of the advertising that we had done, and the praying that was done for the series that there were going to be an abundant amount of new children in church. I made up 50 name tags and bookmarks, with the week’s Bible verse on them, to give to all those children. No one came. I was so disappointed and I began to wallow in that disappointment. So much so that I gave up on the three children who are members of our church, two of them are my own children. I didn’t teach them the lesson because “I” was upset about the way things had turned out.

While listening to the sermon on CD, this phrase came to my mind…The hardest person to let go of is yourself. I have been working for years now to give up me; the person living inside of me that I hate. I get so determined to change myself, and I know that God is the only one who can change me and I am fighting him every step of the way. I don’t know how to let go and let God. It scares me and I don’t know why. One thing I do know is that I am so tired of living the way I am. I am tired of the battles that constantly go on inside of my head. I am tired of regrets. I am tired of fear. I am tired of waking up anxious. I am tired of sounding like a broken record. I am tired, I am tired, and frustrated. It seems like the easiest thing to do; let go.

Monday, April 5, 2010

The Love of God

GIVE OVER 100%...

How about ACHIEVING 101%?

What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help
answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:
H-A-R-D-W-O- R- K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And:
K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

But:
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

THEN, look how far the love of God will take you:
L-O-V-E-O-F- G-O-D
12+15+22+5+15+ 6+7+15+4 =101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard Work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will
get you there, It's the Love of God that will put you over the top!

If you find this interesting share it with your friends & loved ones.
Have a nice day & God bless you

Thursday, March 18, 2010

A GAP IN THE FENCE

She stands in front of the hole again, and just like always, the battle inside of her rages on. She has found many holes like this in the past; a gap in the fence that has held her in for years. How she longs to charge through and race to the wide open fields to freedom.

She has spent many hours wondering what it would be like to have that kind of freedom. She has a good life on this farm. She has someone who takes care of her, feeds her and protects her from the dangers of the world; the fence itself is a protection from what lies beyond it. Oh, but to be able to let go of fears and doubts. She knows that deep down inside of her she has this horse that is just anxious to be set free. She has even had moments where she believes that she can and will; she does have hold of that courage and strength that lies deep inside. She sets her eyes on the gap in her fence and the freedom that lies before it, and her legs quiver with excitement and anticipation. She takes a deep breath and begins to run. She tells her self that she is determined and she dares to believe she will succeed. She is almost to the point where she will break free from this pen, and then suddenly, she realizes that while she spent all of that time in her personal battle that the fence was repaired. She is once again confined inside of her protective pen, in her safe little world.

Today is no different from the past. The gap is before her and the battle rages on inside of her. Today, she is just so frustrated and so tired of fighting. She does not want to give up though, because there is that voice inside of her head that tells her, “Don’t give up. You will succeed one day.” “I am hear and I am never going to give up on you.” So she stands there, with determination in her heart. She grabs hold of the strength and courage from deep down inside, again her legs quiver with excitement and anticipation, and her heart races. This time she closes her eyes, she takes a deep breath and she begins to run. She tells herself that she is determined, now more than ever, and she dares to believe that she will succeed.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Fun in the Snow!



I just wanted to show off Pearl today. She was created by Jerry, Casey and Amber. The fort was my project. They all pitched in and helped my finish it when they were done with Pearl.

Time spent with my family is the best. I am looking forward to doing some sledding this weekend. Loving the snow.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Opportunity

The most powerful thing in your life is your opportunity; it is also the most irretrievable. We must have clearness of vision and a quiet mind if we are to see it, and lay hands upon it as it hurries past us on very quiet feet and disappears as utterly as the day that has gone. -Amy Carmichael. (This is a quote out of my BSF lesson that I just really liked.

Friday, January 1, 2010

The Lord's prayer with the Lord

I don't know who wrote this, I received it in an email and I just really liked it. I wanted to share it.

THE LORD'S PRAYER

Rather cleverly done. This is in two parts, the prayer
and GOD (in bold type) in response.
It is very, very good.
*********
Our Father Who Art In Heaven.
Yes?
Don't interrupt me. I'm praying.
But -- you called ME!
Called you?
No, I didn't call you.
I'm praying.
Our Father who art in Heaven.
There -- you did it again!
Did what?
Called ME.
You said,
"Our Father who art in Heaven"
Well, here I am....
What's on your mind?

But I didn't mean anything by it.
I was, you know, just saying my prayers for the day.
I always say the Lord's Prayer.
It makes me feel good,
kind of like fulfilling a duty.
Well, all right.
Go on.

Okay, Hallowed be thy name .
Hold it right there.
What do you mean by that?
By what?
By "Hallowed be thy name"?
It means, it means . . good grief,
I don't know what it means.
How in the world should I know?
It's just a part of the prayer.
By the way, what does it mean?
It means honored, holy, wonderful.
Hey, that makes sense..
I never thought about what 'hallowed' meant before.
Thanks.
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
on earth as it is in Heaven.
Do you really mean that?
Sure, why not?
What are you doing about it?
Doing? Why, nothing, I guess.
I just think it would be kind of neat if you got
control, of everything down here like you have up
there. We're kinda in a mess down here you know.
Yes, I know;
but, have I got control of you?

Well, I go to church.
That isn't what I asked you.
What about your bad temper?
You've really got a problem there, you know.
And then there's the way you spend your money -- all on yourself.
And what about the kind of books you read ?

Now hold on just a minute!
Stop picking on me!
I'm just as good as some of the rest
of those People at church!
Excuse ME..
I thought you were praying
for my will to be done.
If that is to happen,
it will have to start with the ones
who are praying for it.
Like you -- for example ..

Oh, all right. I guess I do have some hang-ups.
Now that you mention it,
I could probably name some others.
So could I.
I haven't thought about it very much until now,
but I really would like to cut out some of those things.
I would like to, you know, be really free.
Good.
Now we're getting somewhere.
We'll work together -- You and ME.
I'm proud of You.

Look, Lord, if you don't mind,
I need to finish up here.
This is taking a lot longer than it usually does.
Give us this day, our daily bread.
You need to cut out the bread..
You're overweight as it is.

Hey, wait a minute! What is this?
Here I was doing my religious duty,
and all of a sudden you break in
and remind me of all my hang-ups.
Praying is a dangerous thing.
You just might get what you ask for.
Remember, you called ME -- and here I am.
It's too late to stop now.
Keep praying. ( pause ... . )
Well, go on.

I'm scared to.
Scared? Of what?
I know what you'll say.
Try ME.
Forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us.
What about Ann?
See? I knew it!
I knew you would bring her up!
Why, Lord, she's told lies about me, spread stories.
She never paid back the money she owes me.
I've sworn to get even with her!
But -- your prayer --
What about your prayer?

I didn't -- mean it..
Well, at least you're honest.
But, it's quite a load carrying around all that bitterness and resentment isn't it?

Yes, but I'll feel better as soon as I get even with her.
Boy, have I got some plans for her.
She'll wish she had never been born.
No, you won't feel any better.
You'll feel worse.
Revenge isn't sweet.
You know how unhappy you are --
Well, I can change that.

You can? How?
Forgive Ann.
Then, I'll forgive you;
And the hate and the sin,
will be Ann's problem -- not yours.
You will have settled the problem
as far as you are concerned.

Oh, you know, you're right.
You always are.
And more than I want revenge,
I want to be right with You . . (sigh).
All right, all right . .
I forgive her.
There now!
Wonderful!
How do you feel?
Hmmmm.
Well, not bad.
Not bad at all!
In fact, I feel pretty great!
You know, I don't think I'll go to bed uptight tonight.
I haven't been getting much rest, you know.
Yeah, I know.
But, you're not through with your prayer, are you?
Go on....

Oh, all right.
And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.
Good! Good! I'll do that.
Just don't put yourself in a place
where you can be tempted.

What do you mean by that?
You know what I mean.
Yeah. I know.
Okay.
Go ahead... Finish your prayer.

For Thine is the kingdom,
and the power,
and the glory forever.
Amen.
Do you know what would bring me glory --
What would really make me happy?

No, but I'd like to know.
I want to please you now..
I've really made a mess of things..
I want to truly follow you...
I can see now how great that would be.
So, tell me . . .
How do I make you happy?
YOU just did.

This made me think of my goal to completlely submit my life to God's will. I want to do that so I can please Him, So that I can give Him glory. This is a verse that I picked out of a stack of devotionals last night at a New year's eve party.
"I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death." Phillippians 1:20