God speaks

I have really been hearing God lately. It amazes me how creative He is in finding ways to speak to me. I am excited that I have learned how to not miss the moments when He talks to me. Like I said before, He has been talking to me about relationships. He has talked to me through a fiction book I just recently read, people in my life, and through my song that I wrote. I have been reminded of the importance of just "being" in relationship with God. I have been made aware of the fact that I have been placing a lot of time and energy in trying to get close to Him by pleasing Him. I have learned another important fact, that after you let Jesus into your heart you have to learn how to let Him go. What I mean by that is, I have been keeping Jesus all to myself, not letting Him out to shine, not sharing Him with others.

He brought this to my attention while I was practicing my song one day. I have always had a fear of talking to others about God and Jesus. I have never really understood what I was a afraid of. Why AM I afraid to share Jesus with others? I believe God shed some light on that while I was reading that book, by the way it is titled "The Shack". I have never had a fiction book talk to me so much. This might sound kind of weird, but while I read that book I wrote down like 6 pages worth of sentences from that book into a notebook, just things that really inspired me or talked to me in someway. Anyway, there was one part that talked about how fear is just our imagination of the future and rarely is God ever a part of it. That just got stuck in my head. I don't really know that I completely understand it yet. I think some of my imagination of the future is about a fear of disappointing God and people around me. Then there was another part of the book I believe God used to tell me something, and that was that God expects nothing of me and therefore can never be disappointed in me. I believe just like every other step that I have taken in my spiritual walk, letting go of Jesus is a learning process, too. I am determined to complete this lesson with flying colors. I believe that is part of what my song is about. The day I sing it in church is going to be an opportunity to really let Jesus shine through me. Mark reminded me that singing my song is a way to bless someone. That I need to just let go and bring emotion into my singing so that it might touch someone who is listening.

I have to go get pick up my kids from school. Talk to you soon.

Have a blessed day!